Book of the Month December

A saucy sample of Owning Violet

December Book of the Month


Indulge in this steamy excerpt from the first novel in Monica Murphy's new Folwer Sisters trilogy, OWNING VIOLET.


Chapter One



Tonight, my life is going to change.

In preparation for it, I spent all day at the spa. Treated myself to a facial, massage, wax, mani, and pedi. My skin is smooth, my face is clear, my fingers and toes are painted a perfect demure pink. My muscles are relaxed and loose, but my brain . . .

My brain is jumpy. My stomach is a mess of nerves. My out-ward appearance is the exact opposite of my inside because so much is on the line. Everything I’ve strived toward these last few years is coming to the final pinnacle tonight.


I found  a dress to wear  for this special moment a few days ago at Barneys, one I knew Zachary would approve of. A navy-blue sheath, it hits just above the knee and skims over my curves, subtly sexy because he doesn’t like anything overt. Obvious.

Meaning he hates everything my older sister wears, does, says. He doesn’t much approve of the way my blunt baby sister acts, either.

But that’s fine. He’s going to ask me to marry him tonight. Not Lily or Rose.


There’s nothing obvious about me. I’m the epitome of under-stated. I would make the perfect politician’s wife. Standing behind my man, offering my never-ending support all while wearing the pleasant smile I’ve mastered over the years. There  have been a few slipups in the  past.  I struggled once. Fought for my life, really, and survived.

My father and grandmother like to pretend none of that ever happened. Zachary doesn’t even know about it. It’s a moment in time—before I met him—the  family prefers to sweep under the rug.

It’s so ugly, Violet, Father told me once. Wouldn’t you rather forget?

So I try. For the family.

Zachary arrives at my apartment right on tim  because heaven forbid he’s ever late. One of the many qualities I admire about him. He’s punctual, thoughtful, efficient, handsome, and smart. So incredibly smart. Some call him conniving. Others call him cutthroat. Rumors swirl that there are other women. I’m not stupid. I have my suspicions. They might have even been confirmed once or twice. But when we’re engaged, when we’re married  . . .

That will change. It has to.

Zachary and I have a perfect relationship. The sort of relationship  I’d dreamed of since I was a little girl. One that Lily mocks constantly, but what does she know about love?

Sex and addiction and getting into trouble, she knows plenty. But love? I don’t think she’s had a real relationship in her life.

I have. Boyfriends throughout junior  high and  high school, then my one very serious boyfriend  in college. The one I’d originally thought I might marry. The one I gave my virginity to mid-way through freshman year. I’d been a real holdout, one of the last remaining  virgins among my friends.

He dumped me the beginning  of our sophomore year. Right after everything . . . happened. The incident, I like to call it. The thing no one likes to talk about. So I don’t talk about it either.

After the breakup, I remained  single. Tried  my best to rise above everything that happened by focusing on finishing school and then on my career, my legacy at Fleur Cosmetics.

I might have quietly fallen apart for a short period of time that not many know about. We kept it secret. Father didn’t want any more public humiliations. We lost Mom so long ago and he always said I was the most like her.  Delicate  but  determined. Smart but not always practical.

I lived up to his expectations for a brief, not-so-shining moment. I needed  therapy. I needed medication. More than anything, I needed to be numb. Craved being numb. Feeling emotions only hurt, and I was so tired of hurting.

But eventually I knew I needed to learn how to cope on my own.

Father let me return  to work  after  my brief stint  away. And when  Zachary Lawrence started working for the company two years ago, getting to know him, I was soon interested. And so was he. I could tell. I didn’t care if at first he talked to me only because I was the CEO’s daughter. I flirted. I wanted his attention.

And I eventually got it. Got him.

I knew dating someone I worked with wasn’t the smartest move, but I couldn’t help it. Where else can I meet a man of such good quality? Someone I can trust? I have trust issues. No surprise, considering what I’ve been through.

While my father calls most of the shots, the company really is a family business. Both Rose and I work there. Even my grandmother still comes in and consults, though she’s now eighty-five and mostly retired.

She loves Fleur  Cosmetics  and  Fragrance. My  grandma is Fleur Cosmetics and Fragrance. She started the brand. It was her face  that appeared in the magazine advertisements and bill- boards for so many years. Dahlia Fowler is a legend in the cosmetics industry.

And despite my weaknesses and my father’s once complete lack of faith in me, I desperately want to follow in her footsteps. With  Zachary by my side, of course, considering he works in the brand marketing department and has higher aspirations. The two of us could take Fleur to the next level. I know it. He knows it.

Together,  we’re a force to be reckoned with. And once we’re married  . . .

“You’re lost in thought.”

Zachary’s deep voice washes over me and I blink, realize that he’s watching  me. His  brows  are furrowed and his mouth is turned down. He looks concerned.

“I’m fine.” I smile, hope lighting within me when  I see the worry etched all over his handsome features slowly disappear. His blue eyes twinkle as he reaches across the table and takes my hand, grasping my fingers tightly.

“I have something I want to discuss with you,” he says in that low, reassuring way of his.

My smile grows and I nod, squeezing his fingers. “Now?” “Yes.” He takes a deep breath and lets go of my hand. Odd.

“I’ve known  about  this for a while and it’s . . . taken everything within me to work up the courage  to tell you.”

Oh.  How sweet. He’s nervous about  proposing. Zachary’s always so confident about everything—I’m surprised. “Go ahead and just say it, Zachary. I’m fairly sure it will all work out in the end.”

“I agree. Your father said the same thing.”

My heart skips a beat. He spoke with Father. This is serious. This is exactly  what  I’ve been waiting  for all this time. I can’t believe it. My fingers are literally trembling in anticipation of the ring he’s about  to slip on  my finger. I wonder  how  big it is. I don’t like gaudy jewelry. Neither does Zachary. Understated, refined—that’s  more our style. Perhaps  he spoke with Grandma and  she gave him  her engagement  ring, though rightfully that should go to Lily since she’s oldest . . .

“. . . so he’s asked me to test out the new position in London and see if I’d be a good fit. And I said yes.”

Wait.  What?  “P-position? In London?  What  are you talking about?” I clear my throat, proud  that  I keep my voice level. I didn’t  want  to make  a scene in the middle  of one of the most elegant restaurants in all of Manhattan. I could hear my father’s voice now.

Violet, that just wouldn’t do.

“Your father is sending me to the London  office, just on a temporary basis.  They’ve created  a new  position  there since growth in the UK and Europe has been so strong the last couple of years. I’ll be trying  out the new chief brand  and marketing director position both in London and Paris. It’s a tremendous opportunity, Violet. One I couldn’t  turn  down. This promotion could change everything.” The pointed look Zachary gives me says he’s made his choice and there’s no chance I can talk  him out of it.

“But  . . . Wait  a minute.” I shake  my head, a huff of fake laughter falling from my lips. He can’t be serious. That’s what he wanted to tell me? About  a possible  promotion? To  London? “What about  . . .”

“Us?”  he finishes for me with that rueful, charming smile. The one that says he knows he’s a little bit in trouble but somehow he’ll talk himself out of it. As usual. “I won’t be gone for long, only  a few months. Hey, I bet you could fly over for a weekend. Come to London or even better, Paris. We can explore the cities together.”

No offer to take me with him to live there—not that I’d go, especially since it’s temporary. But it could turn permanent and he might end up staying. We don’t know.

Would  I leave to be with Zachary? Only if he promised  that we would be married—and he vowed his complete fidelity. I feel safe here. Everything I know, my family, my friends, my career, is here. In New York. Not London  or Paris. And what about the ring? The proposal?

It sounds  terrible in my own  head, but I expected that. A beautiful diamond solitaire ring accompanied by an offer of marriage, along with Zachary’s promise of undying love and faithfulness to me. A girl can tolerate only so much and I know it’s stupid,  but . . . I love him.

I do.

Disappointment threatens to wash over me, but I hold it at bay. I have to.

“I think  I know  what  you were hoping  for,”  he says softly. “But what sort of marriage could we start if we’re on two different continents? It wouldn’t be fair to either of us. We’re still young, darling, especially you. We have plenty of time.”

“We’ve already bee  together almost  two  years  . . .”  My voice drifts and I drop my head,  blinking  my eyes shut  for an agonizingly  long moment  before I open them again. I refuse to cry. I am twenty-three years old. I refuse to bawl like a little girl. “And  maybe we’ll have another year, maybe two years, like this, but  I promise, I will marry  you.”  My  heart  leaps at his words. “I swear. I just—I need this. This promotion is important to me and I’m not the only one your father is considering. I’m a front-runner, but still, there are no guarantees. For you, it’s different. This is your family. They’ll give you whatever you want,” Zachary says, irritation making his voice scratchy. Does he even register the change in tone? “But for me? I have to work  at it. Constantly.”

I stiffen my spine, offended by his words. They make it sound like I’m some sort of spoiled brat who gets whatever she wants whenever she wants. “I’ve worked very hard at Fleur since I was in my early teens,” I say in protest. “You know  this.”

He waves a hand, whether  dismissing his words or mine, I’m not exactly sure. “You  know  what  I mean. Just . . . let me have this. I’m not a selfish man but I’ve worked  damn  hard  for this career, Vi.” I hate it when he calls me Vi and he know  it. “I’m almost thirty years old. The time for me to do this is now. Before I marry you and we have children and I won’t  be able to ever leave.”

The way he said that makes me think he would feel like he’s stuck with the wife and children. In other words, with me and our future children. Why am I letting this bother me? Am I being too sensitive? What he’s saying makes sense. He needs to push forward with his career. I understand that. But I need to push forward with my career as well. And my life. My personal life, with marriage and children and . . .

My voice is hesitant as I say, “I could ask my father to step in and offer you a promotion here—”

“No. I refuse to take  that  sort  of handout. I will earn this promotion,” he says vehemently. “I  want  to do this. I would never hold you back, you know.”

“That’s not fair,” I murmur, my gaze locking with his. A mixture of anger and sadness fills me, but he doesn’t appear sad at all. No, he looks  excited. Like this is exactly what he wants. What he needs.

Does this mean I’m not what he wants?  What he needs?

“It’s the truth,” he says simply. “And you know  it.”

He never told me he was interviewing  for the position.  And this sort of thing goes on for weeks. Sometimes months. My father didn’t tell me either, and that hurts because he knew what was happening yet never gave me a warning.  More than anything, though, I hate that Zachary has kept this secret from me.

Makes me wonder  if he’s kept any other secrets.

Don’t fool  yourself. He’s kept  plenty of secrets from you. Why do you put up with him?

I swear my sister’s voice is berating me in my head. I can just see Lily’s smug  expression, telling  me  she  knew  it  all  along. Zachary Lawrence  doesn’t deserve me. She’s said that time and again. So has Rose.

I’m starting to wonder if they’re right.

A woman’s husky laugh draws my attention and I glance at a tabl  a few  feet away, recognition making  my stomach  sour. God, of course he’s here. A million restaurants in all of Manhattan and he’d have to show  up in this one. The mysterious, arrogant Ryder McKay, fellow corporate employee of Fleur Cosmetics.

Ryder’s with  . . . of course,  Pilar Vasquez,  his former boss, his supposed lover, girlfriend, whatever he might call her. Their relationship is strange, to say the least.

Strange because Pilar doesn’t talk about it and  Ryder  definitely doesn’t talk about it either. No one’s sure exactly what happens between them, but everyone would love to know.

Not  that I want to know. Or really care. His arrogance, the look on his handsome face, the way he strides around the building as if he’s the king of all he sees, drives me crazy.

If all goes as planned, that right will eventually go to Zachary someday. He is without a doubt the future CEO of Fleur.

Or  me. I could be the CEO. Grandma has said  that more than once. If I had half of her confidence, I could conquer the world.

All I know is that Ryder McKay is definitely not on par with Zachary and all of his experience. He’s worked at Fleur a bit longer than Zachary, a little over two years. He came to the company via Pilar,  who  got  him  a position  since she worked with  him at her previous employer. Somehow, he’s gotten  into the  good  grace  of  practicall  every executive who works at Fleur. His charm is dangerous, and I can reluctantly admit he’s a valued employee.

Which makes him lethal. And I refuse to fall for him. Zachary hates his guts. Something about Ryder rub  me the wrong way.

Ignoring the disgust curling through my blood, I try my best to keep my attention on Zachary, trying to ignore that the life I’d planned is falling apart in front of my eyes. But Zachary’s phone rings, and he takes the call without asking if I mind. Like I don’t matter, and I hate that. I hate even more that he turns away so he can murmur into the phone without me hearing.

More secrets. It’s probably a woman. That I sit here and tolerate his behavior makes me want to smack him.

Or smack myself.

I’m at a loss. I don’t know what to do, how to act, and I can’t help my gaze from drifting to where Ryder sits. He’s disgustingly gorgeous in a charcoal-gray suit and a crisp white shirt, though he’s sans tie and a few buttons are undone at the neck, revealing the sexy column of his throat. His dark  brown  hair is in slight disarray, as if he’s run his fingers through it countless times, and the entire look gives him a rakish air. One that says he doesn’t care what people think of him while he sits in a restaurant that caters to some of the richest people in all of Manhattan.

That is the exact sort of attitude Ryder McKay always seems to have and I find it infuriating. Not that I have to deal with him, not  much. He wa  promoted to associate director of package development a few months  ago, a position I now can’t help but wonder why Zachary didn’t apply for,  though it would have been more of a lateral move, not necessarily a step up. It would have kept him in New York, though.

Unless Zachary had no desire to stay in New York . . .

I stare harder, wishing I could listen in on Ryder’s conversation with Pilar, but I can’t hear a thing.  His face is shrouded in shadows, the candle flickering in the deep red votive that sits in the middle of the table casting it in golden light. He’s very attractive, I can reluctantly admit. Flashing a wicked smile at Pilar, he lets forth a glorious, downright filthy-sounding laugh that sends a spark of heat zipping over my skin.

Only  because  it sounds  so devastatingly wrong  and  shock- ingly dirty,  not  because I have any sort  of interest  in him. He’s too quiet, too mysterious, too . . . dark  and full of secrets. That wicked smile is still curving his lush lips as he reaches across the table and takes Pilar’s hand, bringing it to his mouth to kiss.

I watch, transfixed, as Pilar laughs, her voice raspy as she seemingly admonishes him. He merely shakes his head in return and drops  her hand, his gaze going to mine for the briefest second and then lingering.

I’m caught. Snared in his intense gaze and for a long, charge- filled bundle  of seconds, I return his stare. Recognition  flares in his eyes and I quickly look away, my cheeks heating, and I’m thankful the lighting is dim so he can’t tell. He thinks nothing  of me, I’m sure. I’m barely a blip on his radar, and that’s  just the way I like it. I don’t want his attention.

His type of attention . . . scares me.

Glancing  across the table, I wave my hand  in front  of Zachary’s face but he doesn’t see me. I hiss out his name, earning a hard glare from him before he turns away.

A sigh wants to escape and I stifle it, chancing a glance in Ryder’s direction again to find him still watching me. And he doesn’t look away, either. His smile softens and he leans back in his chair. He positively reeks of a man who knows just how to please a woman—a man who has no qualms about flirting with one woman while sitting at a table with another.

I remind myself tha  I can’t stand him. I hat  his cocky behavior. His confidence is galling and Zachary can’t stand  him. I should  be disgusted that he’s looking at me in such a blatant manner, but . . . I’m morbidly  fascinated.

What’s it like to think that way? To feel that way? Pilar seems absolutely thrilled to be with him, which only confirms that something is going on between those two. And I wouldn’t doubt he’d try and touch her in some inappropriate manner if he hasn’t done so already.  She probably wouldn’t protest, either. She’s an eager climber who has no problems stepping on people to get what she wants, both professionally  and socially.

They look like they’re enjoying their evening, though.

Whereas I’m tense and upset at Zachary’s seeming rejection, they’re laughing and carrying on as if they have zero worries.

Funny, I can’t help but think how lucky Pilar is. To be lost in the pleasure of Ryder’s wicked company while I’m lost to my own turbulent emotions at the thought of Zachary leaving me. Of being alone.


Tearing my gaze away from Ryder McKay, I focus on Zachary, who’s off his cell phone and watching me with an expectant expression on his face. “Now, where were we?” he asks, looking genuinely confused. How could he forget that he’d just delivered such life-altering news?

“You  were telling me about your possible new promotion.” I hol  in a breath, count  to three, and then  let it out  in a soft exhale. “I’m  happy  for  you,”  I finally say, forcing  myself to smile. But it doesn’t feel genuine. My lips tremble at the corners and I let the smile fall away. “Congratulations, Zachary.”

“I knew  you’d understand. You always  understand. Everything.” He reaches across the table and grasps my hand again, giving it a gentle squeeze. “If I get the position, I don’t see myself staying in London beyond  two  years. We can make it work, can’t we, darling?”

“Of  course we can,” I whisper.  But I’m not sure. Two years with  Zachary in another country, meeting  numerous women? Most likely bedding numerous women?

For all I know, this could be the beginning of the end.


OWNING VIOLET is out now!